Furqan starts his Playgroup.

Today is the first day that Furqan our youngest son will start his first session of Playgroup. An early start for all my kids, Furqan at 20mths enters his preschool days at Al-Amin Preschool, same as his older brothers. This year, he will have an advantage, as Khair is still in K2.

As much as I want hime to be independent, make more friends and let him have his play time among his peers, my feelings of leaving him there eludes with a lot of anxiety. I will miss him every seconds as now even when he is asleep and I cant imagine when my boobs starts to engorge as a sign that he needs me. I am sure he will start crying the moment he step up the school van. Well, since Khair starts school only on Thursday, I cant imagine on how Furqan will cope today. Eventhough, we will be visiting him at school but not visibly showing signs of us.

I cant help but start to feel sad, sad at the thought that he will start to make new friends, sad at the thought that I will have my own 'ME' time but deep inside, Im gonna missed him to the max!

And yes, these are the feelings I had been through years back during times where Sufi & Khair starts their preschool. I cried! I cried at the thought that they are far from me. Cried at the thoughts that they have almost entered independent world. I hate this feelings but I cant let my heart rules my head.
These are the precious moments I have to cherish. These are the moments I let them be independent but still bond freely with their parents.

Furqan. Mummy is going to be with you thou far, its gonna be just you & me.... Clenched in our 'Mother & Child' thoughts.