I saw my late paternal grandma.

Today dream was a very sad ones. In fact, it touches my heart deeply that I knew I cried sadly in my dream. Its has been only few months that she left this world, without me having the chance to meet her for the final time. Bad-blood ran through until the day she left us. Its a choice as not to offend anyone at home.
I have been silly as not to choose a choice that I will never regret in my whole life, no doubt I knew she will never hold any grudges against me - her granddaughter.

I missed her. I missed her terribly. I have been thinking non-stop about her from day 1 that she left us. Until, last night. I saw her coming to me, seat beside me and put her hands on my shoulder looking across the view that I am facing to. The warmth of her hands can really be felt onto my skin. I missed that moment. She didn't say anything, she just sat and giving me the assurance that everything will be fine.

I felt assured infact, never been that assured before. I hope to see her again.

The white holiday crawl in.

Why do I call it white? Is when my children start comparing the south pole and north pole to be a white month for December. Which means, snow all over the other part of the world, while its very cold, windy here in Singapore. We felt extra blessed due to our house location, facing the expressway that is facing the Punggol sea and not forgetting the wide open field across our flat and the river park across the streets conecting to the sea.

As much as they wanted to be in the snow, I told them that they are blessed with happiness and almost the 100% good things in life while others are not so fortunate. Why the sudden urged to explain? Not really, as I always try to make them realised of the less unfortunate ones across the globes on every and each fectivals. How lucky they are, to have family and friends to celebrate Eid, New Year, Chinese New Year and even the happy occassion of Xmas. These are the few festivals we get to enjoy as we are in a multi racial country.

Well, nevertheless apart from all this festives, the school holidays has been a fruitful event for my children. They had a break in November away from all academic revisions. All they do was play and sleep, read and watch lots of dvds and also cartoons. And now, December has started with slowly revisions interactively engaged and the best part, they participated in Legos competition held by Anchorvale Community Club just across our flat! Their first time! And I must admit, they are so abstract in their own world. Although they did not win any prize, they are more than happy to try out something challenging during this holidays.

And they are looking forward to their short trip to Malaysia on Xmas. I am too.

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We didn't make it...

How I wish I can just rant it here! Arrghh! We have accepted that its not easy and never will it be. But the reply reason was so ridiculous. And not to mentioned we have spend an amount, but the reply is unacceptable. How on earth do you justify working experience of 8years to 12 months of capacity? Is it 12mths of working experience is vital while 8years of experience is too much?

Anyway, we have tried and we have done our very best. We will try other plans in order to make our dreams realised into a real situation. Theres always a reason behind every result and there always a better option for a non-successful ones... We are positive!

All the best to us!